Have you ever felt weak?
Not physically, mentally or emotional, but like you were a small drop in the world? … Weak
Paging through my life, over the last 26 years, I find that I haven't accomplished anything. I live in a room at my brother's house, I'm up to my ears in debt and have nothing meaningful to show for it.
Everywhere I turn prices of things are increasing, but my meager wage isn't. I work hard, and do my job well. I constantly try to improve things, but still can't get ahead in life. My car is on the verge of breaking down constantly, I have bills I can't afford to pay, and can't pay them without being so broke I can't put gas in my car or scrounge up enough to eat when there are no leftovers.
I try my damndest to help people when I can, but it hasn't amounted to anything but more responsibility, and less money/time for myself. If I could just get enough of a break to get things in order I think I could make it, but right now I don't see any way out.
I read about people making Millions of dollars a year, yet I can't even mount $20,000. If I could make $50,000 for one whole year, I could get all of my affairs straight, and be pretty much set for life… how can anyone make millions and know what to do with it?
I just wish the ecoomy would open up so I can find a job doing what I'm good at that pays a good wage. I missed the boat…literally. 8 years ago when I got out of high school my current skills would have gotten me a decent job, now I'm just scraping a little more than minimum wage.
Ok, I've have my bitching session, life sucks, I realize I have it better than some people, but it shouldn't be where the rich are so rich, and the poor so poor that if affects people who want to work hard and just make a living. Everyone should be able to make it, rather than just barely below the line of scraping by…this is America, land of opportunity, but it seems to have dried up for most of us.
Good night, I'm off to fight insomnia and these horrible thoughts.